Bie
I don't understand why our relationship can be so strong at times & so fragile at times too.
I don't understand why unhappiness & disappointment keeps occurring between us.
Can't we just be always happy & understanding ?
Its just another sleepless night, another stupid fight.
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Simple words & question can drive us mad. really mad. Its all avoidable misunderstanding.
yet tears & broken heart is what i always receive at the end of the day.
Maybe its the way we phrase our sentence, but who to blame? we grow up in an different environment. The same word may means different meaning.
So we just start to get angry at each other.
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I'm a lady or perhaps a girl, did you even realise that?
If you could only see that my heart is fragile. If you could only see that you have take up 90% of my heart.
I wanted to hug you and say lets forget everything, but i cant. those words you said to me is just like stabbing me right into my heart. My heart is bleeding, my tears is drowning me inside.
I can't let you know how i feel. I can't let you know I'm not that strong to face all these.
I'm crying along the roadside at 2am along Orchard Rd, putting on my sunglasses, not wanting people to see my watery eyes.
I'm tired, my heels are killing me. yet i don't want to go home.
Because im starting to miss you.
I was standing outside your hostel helplessly looking at the colour changing of your hostel name. never did you once pick up the phone. You can't believe how fast my heartbeat is beating at the moment. Im scare.
I remember its 3.46am.
I'm feeling scare, Its hard to face all alone.
Having so much to say, waiting for your call, i'm sick, i'm angry, i'm desperate for your voice.
I guess you must have already slept soundly in your dreamland.
The ever last msg i got from you was [I Don't Care] yes. u said it. u said you don't care.
How could you?
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And so i thought Clarke Quay will be much happening there, so cab down. only to see the remaining of sick & drunk people lying on the ground vomiting. Brought myself some beer. thought i will get drunk and sleep and the night will be over soon. Indeed. I slept soundly along the riverside. only to wake up at 8am the next morning. went back to Orchard and thought you will be there. yet there isn't a single soul of you.
Can you imagine how am i feeling? Just imagine.
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Ps: Baby, I don't deserve this ...
I'll go to the doc without you
I'll travel without you
I'll learn to do things without you
you make it hard to breathe.
you make it hard to smile.
why can you do this so easily,
why are you doing this to me
I'll stop calling you baby.
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